They say that before angels go back to heaven, they show signs that their time is coming to a close here on earth.
On that particular time, we might have found everything to be quite ordinary. We go on with our lives as if in the coming days, we would still be experiencing it again.
And when angels finally spread their wings and go home, that’s the only moment when we realize that they have been revealing the signs all along.
Reminiscing the final moments that we have together is one of the many phases of recovering from that loss. Memories are powerful and that’s why we always hold on to them.
Unspoken Words
Your unspoken words of love have continued to resound in our hearts.
It’s as if you have picked a perfect time of the year for us to cherish your final days with the family – Mother’s Day 2015.
Our Sunday routine always involved afternoon naps or walks around the subdivision. Surprisingly, on that day Ate Tatet and I decided to sleep with you in our old room – a place where we usually lock ourselves during our teen years to get away from Mommy and her insistent reminders about getting household chores and school work done.
We always enjoy napping next to you. Aside from the fact that your arms serve as our fluffy pillow, you have become our human alarm clock. You would playfully slam your clenched fist to our eyes or smear our faces with your wet hands. We always found that funny.
This particular moment about that day remains crystal clear to me.
Mommy went inside the room, sat on the edge of the bed, brushed your tiny legs, folded them a little to avoid them from cramping and compared the Ates’ legs to her bunso’s.
I don’t know what else was running in Mommy’s mind at that time, but I remember her saying, “Sus! Sauna daw ka gamay-gamay pa lang ninyo noh?” (It seems like you were just so small yesterday.)
We laughed and answered, “Karon mga damulag na!” (We’re BIG girls now.)
We were crazy and clingy to you up until the end of the afternoon. We danced and sang nursery rhymes like we always do. We took photos and videos with you.
Little did we know it would be the last moment that Mommy’s tres marias will be all together.
We will always look back to the happy and crazy moments that we have. We will not be as crazy and light-humored as we are right now if it wasn’t for you. We always wanted to hear you laugh and see you smile. We will always miss you. 💓
Brushing your Hair
And when all the craziness died down that day, you showed signs that you wanted to close your eyes for a nap. It’s as if you got tired from watching over us as we slept and wanted to have your own time as well.
We laid you down on the sofa and you gradually closed and opened your eyes. And as I sat down near the couch to watch over you, I gently brushed your hair with my fingers like I always do.
You rarely nap late in the afternoon that’s why it came as a surprise when I heard you snore. I guess we got you tired. 💗 Your crazy Ates are sorry. We love you.
A Gift to Mommy
You will always be a special gift to us, most especially to Mommy. We wouldn’t have appreciated her and the sacrifices that she makes if it wasn’t for you. You are a daily reminder that motherhood entails selfless love.
I became a better sister because of the joy that you bring to her. And I know no matter how far you are right now, you will always watch over her like you always do.
P.S. Now that I’m also far from her, please send my hugs to her on Mother’s Day as well. Her one little damulag misses her, too.
Much love,
Ate Lilet
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